Sunday, June 12, 2011

Blessings?

I believe all of the Bible to be God's word and ALL of it's scripture true. Not some, not part. 100% perfect and true to the last period. However, there are many aspects of scripture that I am unable to fully understand. That can be for a handful of reasons. However, I believe all of God's word in faith when I am not 100% certain of the reasoning behind parts here and there. One example was Romans 8:28, which states,  "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." From first glance, that sounds wonderful. Who doesn't want good to come their way? Right? We all like to be blessed. Once we read it again, God tells us in ALL things he works for good of those who love him. Wait....ALL? This is where I pondered. God is telling us that in everything, the good, the bad, the hard, the easy times, God works for good.

Can this really be true for good to come out of massive tragedy? I have heard personal testimonies that shared of this very thing happening in their lives. Thankfully, in my 31 years I had not been through a devastatingly difficult time in my life. Don't get me wrong, I had my fair share of trails and hardship...just not unexpected, gut-wrenching tragedy.

Until March. My brother's best childhood friend of about 10 years took his own life.  This smiley little red-headed boy was so much a part of my family's life and his passing just made me crumble. My heart just ached for him, for his family, my family, my brother and just for my own personal grief. My brother and Sean were attached at the hip for so long, sharing such amazing memories.  No one will forget his amazing smile, and for me...HIS LAUGH. And just days later the horrific tragedies in Japan struck. In the midst of feeling the loss of a life, in front of my very eyes, I saw many people swept away. Lives lost, souls gone. I knew that pain, and here, families, entire cities were washed away. All that combined, and I was in physical pain from the deep, deep grieving.

I was devastated. And for a while I stayed sad, crying often...without losing hope, but just so sad. However, I dug in the Word and into prayer and guess what? God DID work this out for good in my life. God showered me with His perfect comfort and love during this time, on top of using some amazing friends around me to heal the hurt. I'll always miss Sean and be thankful for the great gift of friendship he brought to my brother, but I am at a deeper love and understanding of my Lord through that tragedy. And that, my friend, is a MASSIVE blessing to me.

At this time, my dear friend Rachel sent me an iTunes song gift before it was being played on the radio. As if He sent it through Rachel, JUST FOR ME. It's so wonderful how the Lord orchestrates His perfect timing. This amazing song by Laura Story was a PERFECT way to express how I was feeling. The lyrics were powerfully accurate as to what I was feeling and when I heard these words, I honestly stopped breathing for a moment....

"When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home...
...What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

It still gives me chills and brings tears to my eyes every time I hear it.

Since this song was such a comfort and a way to sing praises, I had the song on repeat for a while. Before I knew it, BOTH my girls had learned parts of the song. Lacy knows most of it and Ashley would BELT out the bridge of the song. Lacy is really showing a love for music, dancing, art, and performing. We have been talking about how God makes everyone special and that He asks us to share the things that are special with others. She has been asking to sing with me sometime, so I thought this was the perfect opportunity.  There is just something that resinates to the soul when a little child sings...

Thank for the all your brought into our lives Sean. And thank you Lord for never allowing our pain to be in vain.

Here is the video and the lyrics are below:


We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Today is oh, so very special...